Working On The Sweater Again

I haven't done much knitting at all since my mother passed away in December, but have finally got myself back in the mood and continued working on the turtleneck I started a while back.

I am almost finished with the bottom ribbing and can then start the sleeves. A little here and a little there and it'll eventually get finished. I'll try and post an update photo once the ribbing is completed.

My Mother Died Last Night

My mother passed away at midnight last night. I knew it was coming but didn't expect it to be so soon. I thought she would at least make it through Christmas and her birthday two days after.

I had prepared myself for this news, but it is still hard to take and I suppose I am still in something of a state of shock. I had prayed just a couple of days ago that if she had to go that G-d be merciful and make it quick so she wouldn't have to suffer. I am at least thankful for that, she simply slipped into a coma and never woke up again. I think that's preferable to suffering a painful, lingering illness and death.

She's at peace now.

I am in Florida with a load heading to Ohio. I am waiting for our dispatch office to open up so I can find out if there is another driver in the area or a reasonable distance away who needs a load and can take mine so I can get home. I am grieving for my mother and at the same time my head is swimming with all of the details that must be attended to. I can't even think straight about all of that right now.

I tried to get at least some sleep last night after getting the news, but it was spotty at best. I remember at one point, between the tossing and turning, having a brief dream that I had rushed home to find that she was in fact still alive. Some part of my mind trying to deny the reality I suppose.

The clock is moving painfully slow right now. I just want to get this load off of me so I can get home where I am needed.

I regret not having made it there to see her one last time before she passed. I truly thought we had a little more time.

Knitting To Take My Mind Off It

Yesterday I learned that my mother is in the hospital and has been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. The prognosis isn't very good at all.

I am very worried about her, and depressed about the whole thing. I really feel for her as this is the 4th time she has had to deal with cancer, each time worse than the time before. The last time they had to remove her larynx.

It's especially frustrating for me because I am out here on the road, far away from where she is, although in reality I know that if I were there I really couldn't do anything anyway.

I just trying to keep myself busy right now, knitting as much as I can to help take my mind off things. I'm just praying that when the specialist sees her on Monday that it turns out to not be as bad as they are saying.

Sweater Progress 11/27/08

I now have the sleeve stitches on holders and am working the body of the sweater. I'm just working on it a little here and there as time allows. It's coming along.

The Sweater Progresses

Now that I am back on the road my knitting progress has slowed. As my truck broke down and I have been sitting around a motel waiting for it to be repaired I've had some knitting time and have made a little progress on the sweater.

Sweater Coming Along Slowly

I didn't get as much done on the sweater today as I would have liked, but between house cleaning, cooking for myself, and compiling a text to speech engine for my mother's laptop (she can't speak), I just didn't get as much knitting done as I would have like. Tomorrow I'll be hitting the road again so that will slow down my knitting too. Ah well, no rush I guess.

Starting Another Sweater

With the slow economy the trucking biz is dead. Since I'm just sitting at home hoping for a load to come through soon I decided to sort through my yarn stash to see if I could put together enough yarn to knit a sweater.

I don't have enough of any one color for a sweater, but I can put together something of multiple colors.

It won't be pretty but it should be interesting LOL